Cellophine Man

Friday night I was sitting talking with an older man who I met about 15 years ago when I first started to go out, he was part of a (so called) clique of guys who were all friends and hung at "Bubba Mac's" restaurant lounge, as you can get from the name of the establishment, it was sort of "Red Neck" in atmosphere. Surprisingly I was almost immediately welcomed into this clique of guys, most likely out of curiosity and questioned about my "alter ego", so I tried to explain it by example.

Many people who have seen the story "Chicago" never get the drift or real meaning the author was attempting to convey, there was another movie with exactly the same story base "The gun in Mary Browns bag". Both of these story's are based about obscure persons who through unusual circumstances become extraordinary celebrities. Without going into details (see the movies), I tend to take on the character when I am Lou of "Amos" the husband of Roxy Hart in Chicago that no one knows who he is. He sings a song "Cellophane Man" the lyrical rhetorical that manifested into my feelings about myself, were "YOU CAN LOOK RIGHT AT ME, WALK RIGHT BY ME AND NEVER EVEN KNOW I'M THERE". That's the way I feel about myself as Lou, the only time I'm recognized as Lou is if someone needs to use me as a "whipping boy" as some of my cycling associates do, they can be very direct, especially this season because I took most of the year off the recover from a couple medical procedures, so I'm really struggling.

As we sat talking people, mostly women a few guys too would come over and great me, asking how I've been and just wanting me to acknowledge them, I would say no less than 40-50 people over the hour and a half I was there. The person finally says to me, "I GET IT NOW", everyone here knows you and just loves the hell out of you, now I understand why you need to dress, it's amazing, you're really a celebrity and I'm proud to know you.

What can I say other than for people to see and be there to see what I feel, I also hope others either in the "Lifestyle" or outside it will learn we all need to be recognize but to do it in a positive way so as not to hurt others.