Friday, September 12, 2008

I know I look good BUT!

I think I just received one of the more flattering comments made to my by a very nice person but unfortunately we're not compatible and I really would prefer to think of it as an expression of his admiration rather than his intent.

He is a photographer who has seen me in public venues and is definitely very straight. Like many middle aged people he is a divorced father and has custody of his children, I only mention this so it is understood he is an upstanding person and like everyone has a little baggage. With that said, anyone who is alone intimately and trying to get by in life also needs some type of affection and depending on their luck, experience and so on with women tend to develop more of a compromising outlook on life.

Well I can make a short story very long, the other night I was at an event where he was and he took a few photo's of me, he then said, you really look great and I would have love to put you over a table and to have spanked your behind, Oh Boy!!!!!

He also mentioned one of the lady's had commented to him how well I presented myself and how it seemed as if everyone accepted me and welcomed me into the group.

My feelings are, I'm still Lou inside, but people see me differently as Louise and just love my image and will go out of their way for me.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

09/08/08 epicurean society


I belong to the Epicurean Society as "Louise" and that is how my membership card is made out to.

The way I got involved is I had gone to a food show and the photographer there does "food" events and asked if I was interested in going to one of the events, how could Louise pass up an invitation.

As we were walking past the windows of the restaurant, my wife mentioned that everyone was staring at me, I was dressed in a VERY form fitting black dress with a flowered print short top on, the dress really showed my ASSets.

One of the couples we have met at other events sat with us, and as I was getting another glass of wine a lady walks up to me and says, did you go to Atlantic City High, I said yes, she said I was your history teacher. I was absolutely taken by surprise, I know I wasn't her best student. I asked how she recognized me, it was because of the big news paper article they had on me a few years ago and she saw my name tag. She just loved my image and was very kind.

I have to admit, for some reason, even some of my old business customers who I had conflicts with and if the could they would have tried to physically harm me, are always attracted to Louise and treat me with total dignity. My wife was very impressed.

09 05 08 Friday with my arobics classmates

Friday I was informed one of the instructors was also a singer at a lounge I have frequented. Most of my aerobics classmates know of "Louise" but haven't had the opportunity to meet her in person, I felt this was an opportune time.



I was only apprehensive of the singing instructor because I didn't want to conflict with her performance and also she seems to be very intense when I've talked with her and I'm not one of her most popular acquaintances.



So in I come and one of the first groups I bump into is a woman who's brother is a friend of mine, she had met Louise once before and she introduced me to the other 3 older lady's at her table. Just to interject, one of the experiences I have come across is that if you are introduced by a person who others respect you're a (shoe) in.



As I checked out the rest of the people at the bar and started to talk with a couple other lady's and again was introduced to a couple others. Surprisingly the singing fitness trainer was very complimentary and liked my outfit, she had a gown on and I mentioned I wanted to try it on, I finally got a laugh out of her.



I wanted to go to another restaurant/lounge so I was saying good night when one of the lady's who just met me started to say,



"I was told your a cross dresser and if I had to pick out a cross dresser in this group, it would not have been you".



What a compliment, I never pretend I pass, especially by the way I walk and talk, I've tried to soften my walk but I remain stiff somewhat like James Cagney who was a dancer but was also so stiff when he walked or danced, it's just a trait I can't change, my voice in some situations for some reason does work and many times if I'm sitting people won't realize I'm a male when talking with me. She also mentioned she was from London and was a physiologist and when she worked for a hospital, they used to strap cross dressers down to a metal box spring dressed and electrically shock them to try to get them to think differently. She asked if she could contact me about the subject, so I gave her my card and we'll see how interested she is.