I rarely go out as Lou for Karaoke, but last night was one of them, and Lou
doesn't like to sing, but he did "Singing in the Rain" last night.
I went up to the bar for our beverages and I'm next to a person who has seen be at the restaurant as long as we've been going there, about 1 1/2 years. He usually (intentionally) avoids and any eye contact or conversation with me. Last night he, apparently felt more comfortable starting a conversation with me.
The first thing was he offered seasons greetings and a hand shake, a good ice breaker, then he said, "I really don't get the whole Louise thing". I said the easiest way for me to try and explain it, it's just a low self esteem condition that I deal with by altering the way I look, it has nothing to do with anything else. We said a few other things all contrite and as I left we shook hands again and hugged each other and as left friends
.
About a half hour later I walked around the bar (as I mentioned I like to talk with people). I came up on 2 ladies who have known me for a few years from the old place we went before the storm Sandy took it. The older and smaller one usually isn't very talkative with me. Last night she had to let me have it. She said, I don't know why, but I just LOVE you, you're always smiling, you're so happy you make me smile, you're contagious and I'm so happy to know you, thank you. Holly Mackerel from just a casual hello for years to all that, I was really taken back, remember I'm the one with the low self esteem, I'm the one looking for people to accept and in 30 minuets 2 people are complimenting and thanking me for letting them into my life, I'm the one who is confused now.
It's been my experience for the past 18 years of cross-dressing and meeting every type of person from all walks of life, that most people view me as a "train wreck" at first, not sure what to do, how to react, if to do anything at all, but one thing everyone has in common, they are drawn to want to know me. They see that I'm not a threat. Maybe not the first time, but after they see me a few times they just have to start talking with me to see WTF I am all about. What would cause someone to take the time, risk their safety, look so comfortable, and appear so happy in doing something that most people would rather jump off the Brooklyn Bridge instead of being caught cross-dressing.
Maybe it's because of the Christmas season.
I went up to the bar for our beverages and I'm next to a person who has seen be at the restaurant as long as we've been going there, about 1 1/2 years. He usually (intentionally) avoids and any eye contact or conversation with me. Last night he, apparently felt more comfortable starting a conversation with me.
The first thing was he offered seasons greetings and a hand shake, a good ice breaker, then he said, "I really don't get the whole Louise thing". I said the easiest way for me to try and explain it, it's just a low self esteem condition that I deal with by altering the way I look, it has nothing to do with anything else. We said a few other things all contrite and as I left we shook hands again and hugged each other and as left friends
.
About a half hour later I walked around the bar (as I mentioned I like to talk with people). I came up on 2 ladies who have known me for a few years from the old place we went before the storm Sandy took it. The older and smaller one usually isn't very talkative with me. Last night she had to let me have it. She said, I don't know why, but I just LOVE you, you're always smiling, you're so happy you make me smile, you're contagious and I'm so happy to know you, thank you. Holly Mackerel from just a casual hello for years to all that, I was really taken back, remember I'm the one with the low self esteem, I'm the one looking for people to accept and in 30 minuets 2 people are complimenting and thanking me for letting them into my life, I'm the one who is confused now.
It's been my experience for the past 18 years of cross-dressing and meeting every type of person from all walks of life, that most people view me as a "train wreck" at first, not sure what to do, how to react, if to do anything at all, but one thing everyone has in common, they are drawn to want to know me. They see that I'm not a threat. Maybe not the first time, but after they see me a few times they just have to start talking with me to see WTF I am all about. What would cause someone to take the time, risk their safety, look so comfortable, and appear so happy in doing something that most people would rather jump off the Brooklyn Bridge instead of being caught cross-dressing.
Maybe it's because of the Christmas season.
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