The Ultra Conservative at the Anchorage Restaurant Last Night

I went out as Lou last night for a snack, my wife chose not to go with me and it was so cold I didn't feel like dressing up.


As I entered the bar area I didn't recognize anyone and all the seats we taken, although they have another bar in the dinning area, so I sat there nest to an older man.


I like conversation so I brought up a pretty non controversial subject, the weather, the guy went some what ballistic. He said "yeah, that jerk Gore says we're warming and now we're freezing". He started to discuss the Ice Age and other climate changes and that it's just a cycle. Then he starts with being an Ultra conservative and being OK with people of different sexual inclinations but hating the fact that people like Ellen Degeneres push the liberalization issue in his face.


At that point I felt I should keep my mouth shut about my "alter ego", but the owner of the restaurant came over and asked if the guy knew me as Louise, I said Don, please not now. All the time the woman bar tender (I went to school and was in the same business as her father) was looking and shaking her head like saying, I know this guy and he's not going to be nice, so I'm saying nothing.


A couple people walk in who know me and come over to say hi and ask why I'm not dressed and where my wife is, I try to brush it off by saying it's to cold and she had surgery, we have a short conversation and they get seated for dinner. The guy I'm next to asks what people are talking about and I say, you might hit me if I tell you. Of course he says I'd never do that, so I reluctantly give him my card expecting to at least get insulted.


He looks at the card and asks, is that your wife, then turns it over and reads the back, it says "Louise a Female Illusion" and lists that I'm available as a party greater and do photography. He says out load, WOW, that's you, you look great and tells the bar tender to give me a drink (on him) and say's I love it and wants to know how much I charge to be at a party for his brother.


People ask me why I'm compelled to cross-dress, for me it's just being treated the way this "ridged" ultra conservative person was compelled to treat me. After talking with me for about a half hour before I shared my other side, he knew I wasn't off the wall or trying to prove anything, which I guess allowed him to accept "Louise" in a more "LIBERAL" manner, I think I allowed an Ultra Conservative to rethink his opinion about alternative people.

Clancy's Restaurant

This past Friday night I went to another of my favorite hangouts. It was mostly the same people who make me very comfortable just by having normal conversations with me. I think most have finally realized I'm pretty harmless and actually see me as Louise.


I walked around the two bar areas and finally settled next to a couple who are very friendly with me and also another gentleman on my other side who claimed to know me but I had forgotten and didn't recognize. Never the less he was very polite.


I like to look and study people, it's interesting seeing many of the same people who seem to have become social groups in and out of the bar scene and then you see some who tend to be alone all the time. The age and type fit all styles and category's, I'd say 5% are married, some are widowed, many divorced.


As I was scanning the area, I noticed 3 middle aged guys, at least mid/late 40's on the other side of the bar, nothing special and I didn't really recognize them. As I'm talking with the one guy on my left, one of the guys from the other side came over behind me and says "Louise, I met you about a year ago and I was just taken back by you, you are amazing and I am so impressed by you". This guy looked some what like "Bluto" Popeye The sailorman's arch enemy. He was pretty big, very hostile looking, veins popping out of his head and a very short beard, this guy had a lot of stress going on in his life and actually reminded me of myself, as far as the stressed look, before I started to go out cross dressed, but he was about 3 times my size. He stood there almost blubbering about how much he admired me and was amazed at how well I looked, he almost had drool running from the sides of his mouth.


I doubt very much he was really attracted to me, but who knows. I was pretty taken back by all of his compliments and some what afraid to ask if he wanted his picture with me for fear he would have taken that as a gesture of me being attracted to him. I think the next time I do have to ask him though, he was very complimentary and I felt like a heel because he may have felt uneasy asking me.


I find it interesting when I read a lot of posts from other CD's who claim they're passable or looking for some type of intimacy with males but won't venture outside of a gay club because they feel safer in that environment. I guess they just don't understand most gay men are attracted to other men, not men who look like women, straight men are attracted to pretty people and seem not to care what gender they may be.


I have no guilt feelings about my sexuality which (I think) is why I can venture out in public and not be ashamed of being myself in any form I chose.

My Urologist

So last week I had an appointment with my urologist, I got there at 8:30 and there's usually a receptionist, but they've changed their system.

 

As I walked in there was a bank of 4 monitors with 3 patients hovering over them and cursing in frustration. I was somewhat taken back, first time I've encountered that anywhere. Well it looked reasonably simple so I started to follow the prompts until it asked me to swipe my drivers licence, I leave that in the trunk. So I went out to get it and came back in, in the mean time the 3 patients are still dwelling over the machines and now with angry and verbal obscenities and frustrations. I enter my information without a hitch in 15-20 seconds but I get a message back saying I missed my appointment.

 

There's no one in front to ask what's going on so I go back to the exam area, where I asked if I can be helped by a somewhat annoyed nurse (I guess). I tell her what happened and she says, you missed your appointment and have to reschedule, I said I want to see my Dr. NOW, she goes back and brings out the office manager, I tell her I'm not rescheduling and I want to see my Dr., she looks up my name and says OK, he'll see you in 15 min's wait in the waiting area. We go out and I tell her look, that guy is still having trouble and he's been here 30 min's, she offers no help to him.

 

Finally, the guy yells WTF, I missed my appointment, he goes in the back and starts screaming, the best they'll do is schedule him at 9:30, mind you, he probably had an 8:15 appointment and it's now 9:00., He leaves the office pissed off. Two more guys come in and I warn them they should have their credentials before they start, the one guy looks at me like, don't worry, I've done this before, so I shut up. Well after 15 min's he finally gets logged in, he must have been very early, because the manager told me it times out after 10 min's.

 

To top it off, my Dr, wasn't even there and they were going to have a doctors assitant see me, but I finally got to see a Dr. but not mine and all he did was to ask me questions about how I felt and never touched me.

 

I should have recorded this whole scene for "Americas Funniest Video's", it was a real classic. I think it's time to find another Dr., this is the 4 th one in the same office I've seen in about 3 years. Maybe some people enjoy different people fondling their privates and having digital examinations, but I don't.