05/26/08 Sofia's

Saturday night I went out with my wife, Millie, I of course was Louise. We have been going to an upscale restaurant/lounge called Sofia's.

I had to find a parking spot so Millie got 2 seats at the bar. I came in a few minuets later and before I could sit down Sofia came over to great me, I barely had time to say hello to her when a gentleman about 50 or so introduced himself to me and asked if we had met before. I meet so many people I couldn't remember, but he said "I want to buy you a drink and come over to our table". I went over and it was a birthday for his 29 YO daughter, he introduced me to about 10 people there and it turns out he's a (get this) brain surgeon. All I know is he had me in a bear hug and was grabbing my butt and was making some comments I'm curtain if he's patients had heard they wouldn't allow him to operate on them. He was somewhat crude, but fun for that level of profession, I'm sure he's under a lot of stress and when someone like me can allow him to let loose he does. We exchanged business cards so I know he's real, he said he would contact me for any party's he may have (time will tell) I always am skeptical when people are overly gregarious towards me.

A night at a Red Neck bar

A couple weeks ago I wanted to go to a bar where a friend of mine hosts Karaoke. I had never been there before and my wife and I looked around for about 30 minuets in the area before we found it.

Brigantine never impressed me as being a "Red Neck" community, I thought because it was somewhat exclusive and expensive to live there most people would be sophisticated and the bar would be more upscale. Did I get a shock, what a dump.

As we walked in they're were people I knew who also liked Mike the karaoke guy and they asked us to sit with them. They had a friend from work with them and I've known these people just on a casual level but it goes to show you, you can't tell a book from it's cover, they are all air traffic controllers at the Tech Center near Atlantic City.

The friend of the couple looked familiar, I probably saw him at one of the other places I go to. My wife sat near him and I could tell he was fairly uncomfortable with my presence. The rest of the people at the bar were a rough looking crowd also.

One of my compulsions is I just need to walk around and push myself on others, if I see them looking at me. I'm not rude at all, but I know they want to talk with me so I need to present myself in a way that allows them to communicate. My opening comment may vary depending on how I think the people may react, I may say, Hi, I'm Louise and offer my hand, or, I may say, do we know each other, so that I can get a statement back like "No" and I will say would you like to? That usually brings a few laughs and breaks the ice.

As I was roaming around, I guess the guy where my wife was, started to question her about me and our relationship, by the time I got back he was a lot more comfortable. I bumped into one couple I knew, I went to school with the guy and another one who was gay, but not out.

The night was fun and when we were ready to leave I wanted to say good night to one lady I spoke with, as I said good night there were 3 really rough looking guys next to her, one grabbed me and said, my buddy wants his picture with you, turned out they were very friendly, I would have had fun with them but it was time to go. Oh he did a picture with his phone and had to break his buddies' chops by saying it was being posted on the net.

My spin Instructress

My wife and I have been going to an upscale restaurant lounge in Margate. I belong to a Community Center health club where I do spin and aerobics. My spin instructor is engaged to an old customer of mines son, they came to the lounge to see me as Louise. They were quite impressed or at least seemed to be.

Bewildered in a good way

I have to break up the last few weeks into different posts or else no one will read any of it.

My wife and I as Louise went to another Epicurean Society banquet ( I joined as a member). To my surprise everyone, even some of the purveyors who were displaying some items for chefs were very polite to me.

As we walked in I noticed a person I thought was an ex customer of mine, he was seated or else I would have known it wasn't him. Being polite I said hello and asked how he was, he was very polite and said I'm not that person. He then showed me his name tag and he was the Dean of the Atlantic Community Collage, I was a little embarrassed but he was a gentleman towards me and said it was nice to meet me.

Another acquaintance was there whom I know from the club my wife used to work at, this lady writes an article for the society and her husband just retired as a State Trooper.

Dinner was fair and I don't like to over eat as Louise anyway. My photographer friend was there and he was kind enough to photo me a few times.

As we were getting ready to leave, I wanted to introduce my wife (Millie) to the main Chef and said, Chef Jeff, this is my wife, he looked and said "I'm confused" I don't really know what he meant, either he always thought I was a female or I was gay and not married, I'm not sure, but I'll have to ask next time.

How funny

Oh my god..I have been meaning to write you back or call you...I DID have a conversation with both Kathy AND Erwin..seperately.. It was soooo funny.. You may have scarred Erwin for life! Kathy called me after you and I had spoken last and asked me if I remembered you..I told her that you and I have been put together, randomly, during one of my golf outings to the Seaview Marriot course. Since I usually play alone, I told her they pair me up with other people. So, I said that you and your buddies were out there, and I just got paired up with the three of you. I told her that in our conversations throughout the day, that you mentioned you used to own a gas station, and I had told you that I was in the Underground tank business here at DEP. I told her, that I gave you my # and if you ever wanted to golf again, or needed help with any DEP issues, to give me a call, and that was the last I heard of you until 2007, when you called about your old site issues.. She said "is that all??" I said, yes, "why?" She said, he didnt mention any "alter egos?" I said, "Kathy, what the hell are you talking about?" then she started to laugh and state that she and Erwin had gone to the site to meet you and your consultant, or the other RP's consultant or whatever. She said, "well, we got there and there was this well dressed lady there with the consultant, so I went over to them and introduced myself, and new right away, something was amiss..or a Miss...no pun intended!".. She said that she introduced herself, but then said something, like, she didnt get your name?? and you said.."Lou Tate!" She said she knew right away that you were a man, but wasnt sure if Erwin realized it right away, until you said you were Lou Tate!.. To your Credit..she said that if it werent for your larger hands, she would have thought you were just a well dressed older Jewish woman!! (Is that the look you were going for that day?? lol??!) Kathy, of course, wanting to be professional about the whole thing, said to herself, "well, no big deal, lets just move on!" She said she kept looking at Erwin, and he just looked really dazed and confused..I guess they had a big laugh in the car on the way home, as that may have been a first in DEP history.... to meet on site, with a crossdresser! See Louise..you gave the DEP something to talk about for years! Of course she kept grilling me, and asking if I was into that sort of thing as well! So, I did my best "Deny, deny, deny" approach. Then, I was downstairs having a soda on break, and saw Erwin come into the cafeteria. I called him over and asked how things were going. in his typical stoic self, he said, "fine" and sat down.. I asked him how his cases were going, and tried to make small talk, but he acted like he knew that I knew something!? So, I asked him, "if he had an interesting meeting last week?" then he started to smile and asked what I meant.. Then, I said, "you met an acquiantance of mine?" then he just smiled and got all red!... He said "let me ask you, Has that ever happened to anyone else in the history of DEP?" I then started to laugh, and said," not that I know of, you are the first case manager that I know that has met a CD on site!" He just said "why me??!" I said, whats the big deal? He had no answer, as of course, it's NOT a big deal really. But he was just beside himself. I asked if he knew what was up when he got on site, and I asked him how you were dressed...he said, you had your nails done, jewelry, nice clothes..heels..but the hands gave it away!..lol.. Maybe you need gloves next time!? lol...He did say you were dressed very nice...I didnt want to say, that " I know, she always dresses nice!" as that would definitely give me away. I think you shocked the poor guy for life. He'll never have another meeting on any other site with any other RP and NOT think of his meeting with you. I kinda wish I had been there..I asked if he had the DEP camera with him, and he said he didnt, but wishes he did, because no one would have believed it!...(actually, you might have even posed for a nice pic, knowing you!).. anyway...I am sorry I didnt get back to you sooner, I have been swamped at work, and also, have not had much fun as Tonya lately. I did go on line and do a makeover! here are some pics..which styles/colors do you like the best? How do you like me in glasses?! lol...Actually, I think they are sexy in a librarian sort of way! I like the red curly hair...I think that looks cute on me..anyway..I WILL get down there to see you..I promise. I dont have that many OTHER friends...I promise you...Love ya..Ton.

My Day in Philadelphia

Friday (04/18/08) I had gone to Philadelphia for a Photoshop seminar. It turned out that it was more for graphic artists than for photographers so it was like a whole new area of study.As I was on the train on the way up we had made a number of stops, on one of the first ones I notice a blond woman and a middle eastern gentleman board the train, but never paid any attention to them. I used the rest room before we got into Philly because I wasn't sure where they were or if I would be able to used the lady's without difficulty. As I was closing the door to go back to my seat I heard two people call my name, I turned and it was the couple who had boarded earlier, turned out it was a woman I've known for over 20 years that I race bike with, but with her being out of cycling clothes and helmet I never recognized her, but she had seen pictures of me and I tend to have an unforgettable look so they recognized me. I offered the woman my card but her companion a emergency room doctor took it and said he wanted to invite me to his house parties because we knew many of the same people.

Well, I finally get to the Philadelphia Convention Center and the schedule was an hour later than what was on the ticket, so I had time to kill. I went to the Terminal Market that has many Pennsylvania Dutch vendors and got a bagel with cream cheese, the lady's were very polite and the one who waited on me insisted she toast my bagel while she made small talk with me.

When I finally got into the conference hall I wanted to sit near the front, but all the isle seats were taken, I chose to sit where a late 30's early 40's man sitting one seat over, I didn't want to make him uncomfortable or make it look as if I was "cruising" which I don't do. About 5 minuets later a middle aged attractive lady asked if that seat between us was vacant and I offered it to her. The guy sitting on her right started a conversation with her about her reason for being at the seminar, which happened to be the same as mine (photography) he mentioned he was a GA, he asked what camera she owned and I commented I owned the same brand, she all of a sudden started to ignore the other person and started conversing with me even through some of the seminar. She asked me if I would mind if she contacted me after wards so I gave her my card.\

I just can't understand why in most cases, when I'm Louise, people are always gracious towards me and even go out of their way to be polite and even make gestures that I have never received as Lou, I have to admit, I have often been alone and thought about it or talked with my wife about how kind people are to Louise and have had tears in my eye's. I had asked my wife one time, I wonder how my life would have been if I were not born Lou, and have just sobbed because of knowing how hard Lou struggled to be able to be accepted as a human being.

After an hour we were offered a break, I needed the rest room bad. I was going to use the lady's but as you know it was packed and I just didn't need some hysterical woman yelling FIRE if she saw me walk in there and made me as a male in a dress. I then proceeded into the men's room short hallway, as I did a man said loudly "Ma'am you're going into the men's room, I ignored him and as I opened the door another man was pulling from the inside and looked right into my eye's and said "Miss this is the men's room, I smiled, another man behind the first one yelled the same thing, I turned and smiled. I waited in a line for a stall, a few men turned to looked then must have figured me out, I finally got into a stall and could hear a few commenting that a lady was in the stall. It was a hoot.

I forgot to mention, on the way into the main terminal up the escalator into the train station there were about 5 police with machine guns and then a few using wands and searching passengers luggage who were going onto a train, the Pope apparently was traveling or possibly the presidential candidates. I was waved by (go figure).

I got a taxi back to the train station and was sitting waiting for my train to board, a black lady walked by and obviously recognized my gender, she put her belongings on the other side of the isle and then came over to me and offered her business cards, she's a casting director and has worked with Bill Crosby and asked me to send some head shots and a resume, but I doubt anything will come of it, but again it was a gesture Lou would have never received.

Me and the EPA (Enviormental Protection Agency)

If some don't know I had owned some auto repair shops and one I also owned the property. I had purchased it way before the EPA even existed, but then the laws changed and all of a sudden I had an issue with contamination.

Over my years of being out and meeting and talking with people I met a person who is also a CD whom I hired as my environmental consultant. I also met another CD who works for the State EPA, and has reviewed my case.

Yesterday, April 16 2008, I had an onsite meeting with 2 people from the EPA but I did so as "Louise" because for some reason Louise seems to carry more influence when doing business. Well, the male EPA official also knows my friend who reviewed my case and said he had met me on a golf event when he was here with some other EPA employees. This case worker looked as if he had never developed a sense of humor and was pretty much a conformist in whatever level of life he associated with. In other words he went to work did his job and came home, that looks as if it's the extent of his life.

When he met me all he could do was smile, not a grin, but the broadest smile from ear to ear for the whole 1 1/2 hours, he asked me no less than 3 times if I was who I was on the files and then asked me about a golf tournament with this other EPA State employ, all I could say is "I can swing a club"

I doubt if I got any benefit other than they were very polite and did offer some information as to how they could help to expedite closing the books. The State employees do need to follow rules but they do have knowledge as to the best ways handle situations.

I had to call my other friend about the connection the male EPA officer made so that he could have a good story ready. It will be very interesting who the conversation goes and how my case worker acts when he is talking with my (so called) golf buddy.

I'm on Fire

I went out Saturday night to a Cross Dresses event in Tom's River. When I walked into the Hotel there were a number of Firemen with a professional photographer. They were mostly the officers of the Fire stations, they asked if they could have their pictures with me. Understand there were about 35-40 other CD's there but they chose me, I guess "I lit their FIRE"

Most likely an end

A little over 2 years ago I had met a person on line who had a lot in common with myself. We arranged a meeting with our wife's at a neutral location. I at that time was not curtain if I was attracted to him and I'm sure the feeling was mutual. I had been looking for around 9 or 10 years for this type person and when finally meeting someone so close it was like a stroke of luck.

We talked on line and met at my home. Well after seeing him in person and how our interaction developed it was love at first sight for me. I really don't consider myself gay or Bi, but have become very open minded as Louise which has transferred to me as Lou. This person did inform me he was very Bi sexual and had a number of encounters which I informed him that I was not really into and preferred exclusivity, he said that would be difficult for him, so I have to admit I was walking on thin ice if I was to allow myself to get to involved. I do tend to be on the possessive side and was hoping by me satisfying all and any of his needs and being safe, clean, mature, stable (a matter of opinion) that I could win him over to being exclusive to me.

Anyway, I have voluntarily (as an armature photographer) taken thousands of pictures for him, taken he and his wife out in public for his first experience's so he could develop a comfort level in those environments, in a way I was his mentor. His presentation and appearance in my opinion was one of the best, a great figure and a good look and manners.

Over that time I had felt that he was developing very quickly to the point where he was no longer in need of our relationship, instead of him coming to me, and I realize his work constraints made if difficult, I would travel to him. But it was becoming painfully obvious I was losing someone who was very special to me. For example, he doesn't IM me any longer ( he used to almost daily) when I IM him he gives me one or to word replies ( yeah, busy), he makes many posts to Yahoo groups he monitors but has no time to say hello, how was your weekend or how do you feel?

They're are a lot of negative aspects to our relationship, but both our wives are aware of it but not to the full extent I suspect. Maybe I do it for sexual needs but my feelings are far beyond that, what his reasons are I think are more about the high or power he really has even though he claims to be a submissive.

The feelings I am experience now are that he is tired of me, to use his words when I questioned what happened with his other relationships was "we moved on" I have to assume that means he has moved on and is looking for others, for what reason I don't know, but I treat friends much differently, I like to share what I have and can hopefully do to add to there lives. I try not to ask for favors and I have to say my friend never really directly asked but did make suggestions as to things he would like or want to do. I did ask a favor though and even though he said he could help me with it he said or indicated it would take time and then he let it rest. I also just yesterday sent an IM for him to call if he would like to come down for the afternoon for dinner with his wife and child, not only didn't he respond to my IM but he never even called to say he couldn't which left me not knowing if he was or not. Yes I could have called him, but he did get my message and I had also mentioned it on Friday when he called me about a problem he had.

I also find it unsettling that he will make posts about things he has done and posts many of my pictures but has never given me recognition for all I have helped or done for him, maybe I'm on the wrong side of this, but it's not as if he is not looking for something that I gladly offer at anytime. Instead he is willing to travel uncharted waters with people of questionable back grounds or health history, even though he says his plays safe I do question that.

I always blame myself, people always tend to walk on me no matter what I try to do, I mentioned that to him the other day and he said without reservation or sensitivity "maybe I let them" well I guess when you offer your heart to someone you have to expect that, why would I expect someone to treat something I give with the same consideration I have for them.

I can only say in ending, I know I will not meet another person as this, it is my bad luck and even though I have memory's I still feel I have lost something I always wanted but couldn't have. I can only say, my heart is very broken, I wanted to give so much for this to work, to help me feel wanted, for me to give to someone all I could within reason. To me this was so much more than just an intimacy relationship, but maybe he felt I was getting to deep, I don't know. I know he is very capable of manipulating words, making things better or just dropping me and the whole subject, he seems to be non selective so anyone or thing is fine with him, where as I tend to be very selective so it's harder for me to develop what I'm looking for.

Cycling Club Christmas Party

I went to my Cycling Club Christmas Party as Louise December 15th. I ride with two groups, this one loves me as Louise, the other group has issues, but I thing the issues are with themselves, I'm Lou either way.

A quote I have thought up.

"Why is it many people are unhappy when you are and happy when you aren't"

I just can't understand why many people have issues when you find something that makes you happy but because it might be somewhat non traditional that they need to criticize it. As Lou I still feel pain, my heart hurts when broken, I am happy when my family and others are, I suffer from financial concerns on those of my family, in others words just because I like to wear a dress sometimes and have fun I am still a contributor to society. I also still as Lou or Louise am attracted to what I'm attracted to, so why all the fuss, do I bring out unique thoughts in others that they feel uncomfortable admitting to? Fortunately, I have very few acquaintances of that type, most people I meet as Louise seem to fall in love with me.

A busy few months

I've had some very interesting events since December. I have a female doctor (divorced) who is very open minded, she is 45 Y/O. I had introduced Louise to her because she just had that look as if she was into alternative lifestyle, I can't explain it but it's something like "gaydare". I mentioned to her an event in Philly the Diobolique Ball and she asked to go with me so my wife Millie made her up and we had a great time. Our relationship was and is totally platonic. We have been out a couple times since but I am always Louise.

I was also hired for two parties, one a birthday party and the other I was asked to hand out Pollyanna gives for a manager of a local restaurant.

They're are so many details but to go into them here would be very boring so I'll just cut to the chase.

Acceptance or passing, Bike Shop

For those who do not know, I was a competitive cyclist but only ride to stay fit now. Last week I wanted to get my Mt Bike ready for the season and was dressed as Louise when I took it to the shop. The owner and about 5 employees and a few customers were there. The owner kept looking at my legs (smile), but as far as everyone else they were very polite and no one even made a comment.

I don't pretend to pass for a moment but I make such a nice and non threatening presentation people just seem to accept me for who or what I am. Some people find a need to converse with me about why I CD others just want to know me for me.

I also went to a funeral where the deceased was related to a local politician, so the County Executive, Senator, and some local Mayor's and councilmen where there. Well needless to say they all know me because my brother was County Treasurer for 20 years and all have met me many times as Louise. Again is it acceptance or passing. I feel in today's society it's more about acceptance.

Rainbow GOTM (girl of the month)

Today I was chosen GOTM on the "Rainbow Lounge" Yahoo site. I have no idea who the persons were that nominated me, but I was informed that it is a very prestigious honor.

This is the type of site and direction I have encouraged since I have been involved openly as a CD (TG) person.

I want to thank the people who nominated me, the group owners whom I met after the nomination and the moderators especially the one who posted this following message.

"GOTM: CuteLouise Posted by: "Heather" heather@heathercd.org heathercd_2005 Date: Wed Oct 31, 2007 8:27 pm ((PDT))It is my pleasure to introduce our GOTM Cutelouise. In the several years that I have known Louise she has proven to be a person of great integrity. Louise is the first to open her home up to any transgendered individual who needs help getting out. I have seen Louise offer to take many a TG out anywhere that they would like to go in a safe manner, even opening up her closets to anyone who needs help in finding a look that is right for them. I can say from personal experience that Louise has helped me become who I am today because she is who she is.Louise is one of those people that can encourage a person to grow in who they are and at the same time keep them grounded. She always gives solid advice tempered with a dose of reality. Louise is always one of the first to offer a handshake and education to anyone that she comes across.To quote Louise: "Where you are I once was. Where I am you will be too."Congratulations, girl.. you deserve it.-- Hugs,Heather"

Just catching up

I usually go out 1-3 times a week, I wind up talking with many people because I am very unique in my area of Atlantic County. I'm sure they're are a few other Cd's who may venture out but prefer to keep very low profiles and I wouldn't recommend anything else for them unless their lives were very secure in all aspects.



I find it very interesting that in my particular situation and one of the reasons I dress as Louise is due to the way people interact with me, where as Lou, it's an non interaction and the difference is demonstrative. To get to the topic, many people, usually women with confide in me some very personal information about relatives who may be gay or who at CD's or TG. This Friday night 10/12/07 a woman told me about lack of sex life with her husband, she was 62 so I assume her husband was no less that age and probably slightly older. I said women need to go on estrogen at her age and men have testosterone reduction at that age also and maybe he needs to be treated. The other suggestion I made was, if she feels sexual and he is non compliant that her age she has all the right to make her self happy anyway she feels fit. She hugged me and thanked me as if I was giving her affirmation and my blessing. What is interesting is that seems to be a common event when I'm Louise, but never as Lou.



I have to also say that this exact transformation has occurred with me son, we had a very augmentable relationship but since he met Louise he treats me much differently and we have a much more pleasant time together.



My question is, do I change or is it the way people see me that changes.

Vette Show in Ocean City, NJ

I rarely go out on Sundays as Louise, but my wife had gone on a cruse last week 09/19/07 so I was bored and figured I'd do some cruising too.

The first thing I like to do weekends is to race bike (usually 45 miles) with a group, I don't do well but I hang in. Then I came home and dressed up and decided to wear my camouflage mini dress (I wanted to blend) LOL.

The next thing I did was to go to the local restaurant my wife and I patronize every Sunday, the Waite staff love me, as Louise, and I can always see people staring or asking about me, I want to be noticed and feel if I'm not then I dressed to conservatively.

After my meal I headed to OC and found a parking spot fairly close to the boardwalk where I just pranced up to the boardwalk. I had my DSLR camera because I wanted to do some nice pictures, I walked a few blocks and noticed a young man, about 30, walk across the boardwalk in my direction who gave me a glance but I always expect that so didn't pay any attention to him. About a block or two later I hear a person say "do you mind if I talk with you" I turned and it was this young man, I said of course not and he replied "I love you and so does Jesus" well he didn't know me very well. By the time we got through walking about 20 blocks together he had told me a lot about himself and why he became "born again". He was a very nice person and if people don't know, Ocean City is a very Christian community, mostly Christian Science or other extreme groups who say they accept everyone unless they don't fit they're nitch.

I know as I walked by some of the groups of people who were sitting by the railing due to the long boring event I was receiving a lot of attention, I would hear some of the women laugh, I'm sure that 15-25 years ago they were a lot more attractive and slimmer, but possibly they were reacting to the way I looked in my mini and were reflecting on how they would have looked in it today and thought they would look comical.

I finally saw someone with another DSLR and figured I would ask if he would be kind enough to use my camera to take a couple of pictures of me. I must have really startled him because he almost stuttered and then took to shots without even considering the composition but at least I had something to prove my story. The picture does little to compliment me, my hair was wind blown and I was up there for about 2 1/2 hours and facing a very bright sun, I look much better in very dim lighting, if you get the drift.

Louise

An Interesting few weeks as Louise

I don’t find that I post enough to my blog because I tend to get involved with other things and possibly the main reason I do so many things as Louise it just seems normal for me and I don’t want to come off sounding like a braggart.

The last few weeks have been very busy for me, first my wife was some what car jacked, not to go into details it was quite an experience, fortuity she wasn’t hurt but we’re still sorting out details. Next she recently left Studio Six in Atlantic City after 10 years as the Karaoke hostess up to 4 nights a week; it was getting too dangerous in the area besides other conditions. But she got a new gig once a week closer to our home and I help her set up and tear down as Louise.

A few weeks ago I was the photographer at a Civil Union, one person's parents were there and the other one’s ex-wife and children attended. It was a very short but beautiful service and the first I had attended of a same sex marriage.

I also had an appointment and I decided to go as Louise, it’s always interesting to see how people treat me as Louise when doing business, they’re either afraid I’m off balance and agree to my demands or my affect in femme mode over powers them, I don’t know but I do know I get what I want as Louise. From there I went to a friend’s beauty salon just to say hello, a young nail technician offered to do my nails for nothing but I still took care of her. As I turned while waiting for my nails to dry the lady behind me said hi and asked if I was an actress, I asked why would you ask that, she said well you’re a beautiful woman and keep yourself in great condition and your makeup is wonderful, you just don’t see people like you. I said no, I’m a cross dresser, she almost fell out of her chair, she was shocked. Turns out she was a Nurse Practitioner at the local rescue mission, I know the past and current directors because I raced bicycle with the past one and went to school with the assistant director’s brother. We had a long and very understanding conversation about alter egos because she says when she has her lab coat on she feels less veritable due to losing her left lower leg in an auto accident and the lab jacket covers it.

This past Sunday 07/20/07 my wife was contracted to be a hostess at a multi party (birthday, anniversary, graduation) there were about 200 people 20-30 were fireman with the lady’s husband, I have to say they were a very tough group to break, they’re all mucho types and are afraid to show any variability’s by accepting a cross dresser and were waiting for one brave hero to at least accept me so the rest of them could, it turned out reasonably well, I think at least 70% accepted me the rest I better be me or they might leave me to burn. Another pat of this is I was asked to come as Lou and set up and have people meet me as Lou, then I was to transform into Louise, the lady’s daughter is a makeup artist and did my face, I thought pretty good. An interesting thing was the 14 year old male cousin who was somewhat androgynous in looks and build; he had to stay to watch the transformation and loved it with a mixed manner. What I mean is he’s 14 and trying to be the boy he was born so he’s trying to be mucho like all the friends that were there but also has mixed inner feelings as to his sexual direction. I know this can open a lot of discussion so I’m mentioning it.

Anyway that’s the short version, if anyone would like more details so they might have an idea how to handle themselves in a situation they’re not comfortable with just ask, I always want to help.

Louise

A busy week

Interesting happinings

It's been a while since I posted last, a lot of interesting things have happened in my life.

I became a grand dad/ Mom to a beautiful girl, Maya Faye, and she has met Louise many times with her mom and dad.

I have also met a few new Cd's who we've helped with makeup and I took one out to a casino. For the most part compatibility is very, very limited or disappointing.

My wife, Millie, finally left her Karaoke hostess job at the only gay club in Atlantic City after 11 years, it was just too dangerous up there anymore and leaving work at 3 AM in the morning made her a moving target for anyone looking for pray.

Well they're is tons more I could post but I don't know if anyone reads my Blog.

Louise