Saturday night 06 20 09

The lady singer of the band who knows me asked me to come to the lounge they were playing at and asked if I would be kind enough to contact some other people. I mentioned to her I was driving by one couples house and would knock on their door, but they weren't home, so I wrote a note and left that and my card in their door jamb.

Last night when she was thanking everyone for coming out, before going on break she said, I especially what to thank Louise for stuffing notes in peoples door jambs, and her husband said "now Louise will be known as the stalker" I just can't win.

I left there about 10 PM and made another stop for a few minuets at another lounge because another girl who sings was supposed to be there, but she wasn't, so I left and went to a place in Margate. I rarely sit, but I had been on my feet for a while and needed to rest them, A couple came in close and stood by me, the woman was wearing what would be considered "Fetish" style boots with stiletto heels and tight fitting to the knee. I pretty much realised they were most likely open mined and I motioned with my eyes to her husband the boots. He came close to me and said he loved them on her. We started a general conversation and it really never got into what you would think when you meet others with a similar genre I only describe why a lot of males like to cross dress because they're female companions won't dress the way they like so they do it to satisfy their fantasy's (for the most part) they're are many other reasons.

One of the servers who knows me came by and said, look it's Charles Barkley, the basket ball player. Boy that guy is huge, he most have shoulders about 5 feet wide. I really wanted to have my picture with him and even figured how to get it, I was going to say, Mr Barkley, would you like your picture with me. But he was being swarmed by everyone and I just felt it would be rude to impose when he was trying to have an evening out.

My Son's Birthday & the photographer 06/14/09

Sunday 06/14/06 is my Son's Birthday, this was another milestone decade for him. He is also expecting another daughter besides the 3 1/2 year old he has now, I wished him years ago that he would get everything he deserved in life and it seems he will be (smile), of course I hope to it's all happiness and I intend to do all I can to help if need be.

For this special occasion, my wife and I went up to NNJ to spend most of the day with him and his family. After taking a number of pictures at his home, mostly of our grand daughter we headed for dinner to a Mexican place in Englewood, NJ. The area tends to be very exclusive and due to the beautiful weather there were many people sitting outside in cafe settings.

As we were to enter the restaurant I encountered a few gentleman where one mention that I had "A real camera", we commented back and forth about the attributes of what mine did compared to his point and shoot, when another gentleman walked up with a similar camera as mine and chimed in the conversation.

It's interesting how when we as humans tend to see something we have in common with someone else even if they are a stranger it allows some type of bonding aspect and we feel we're on common ground without any prejudice. The reason I mention this is that I was Lou on my son's birthday but many times I'm Louise because I always feel Lou is ignored or rejected and Louise has always tended to draw much more attention, but yesterday was an exception, at least I felt.

As myself and the gentleman, David, spoke he apparently mentioned something to allow me to share my other persona, it turned out that he is a very creative and published photographer and is doing a demonstration at a NYC alternative type club that he graciously invited me to attend the next Friday ( hope to attend).

After we ate dinner, I stepped outside to try to take some creative photo's of my grand daughter peeking out the door and noticed the same gentleman were all sitting together. So I started to talk again with David who mentioned his book and offered to show it to me, I wasn't aware of the quality or the fact that it was available for purchase. My family in the mean time had walked by me and I told them I'd only be a moment but when I start talking it goes on and on. They pulled up to the corner as I went to find them and because I was without any cash on me and felt a little embarrassed by the friendliness of David I wanted to buy his book, and asked my wife for the cash.

I bought David’s book and he autographed my copy to Lou and Louise, I now have to contact him so he can see my "Alter Ego" or other persona. My family was very impressed by the book also.

A night at the Red Neck Bar

Over the last few months, my wife, her friend and myself as Louise have been patronizing what I consider a "Red Neck" bar in Brigantine, my description of Red Neck bars is where everyone wears "wife beater" T shirts, drives a pickup truck and has a tool belt strapped on them, well it's not quite that demonstrative, but you get the idea, it AIN'T a place for girls like Louise.

As the night went on and the three of us sang a little Karaoke and had a few adult beverages I was taking some pictures of my wife singing. A young, very attractive lady came over to me and mentioned she had seen me on the Boardwalk during the Miss America Pageant and wanted to remark about how much she admired my courage for being so out. She was very complimentary and noticed everything about me including the way I carried myself with so much confidence. I think that is one of my key attributes to being accepted so well into all lifestyles.

As we were talking there was a man next to us who had seen me there before and offered me a drink, I tried to discourage him politely but he insisted, so he bought me a shot so we could do a toast, he also was very animate that he was totally "STRAIGHT", but after the toast he took my face in his hands and in front of his friends and this lady said "You are so beautiful", well maybe he was straight, but as I always quite myself (I turn gay men straight and Straight men gay".

Atlantic City Press "Lady Luck"

I was contacted by the Atlantic City Press a few weeks ago and asked if I would be receptive to being a Co-Hostess for a new Website called "Lady Luck". Of course anyone especially a Cross Dresser would jump at the offer. I was some what concerned as to the venue though, even though I cross dress I like to present myself in a positive and not overly provocative image.

I asked what the dress code was and I was told "wild", I sent a couple pictures of what I considered formal and some what suggestive. The person, whom I never met said she loved the girdle, stockings and PVC jacket, I felt that would be a little over the top for an affair in a higher end hotel and for the Press where I suspected pictures would be taken so I opted for a more formal look. I made the right choice.

I would like to put Cross Dressing on a higher plane than just fetish or Drag Queen images, you can make an impression without compromising yourself.

A night with US Marshals

I was invited to a birthday party (05/24/09) for a lady I had met a week before at a local restaurant/lounge in Margate, NJ. I went to the hostess desk and was told nothing had been reserved, well did I feel dumb.

I figured as long as I was all dressed up and the place seemed to be lively I'd have a glass of wine and wait a half hour and leave, I had another place I could go, so it wouldn't be a total waste.

As I was standing listing to the music I felt someone put their hand on my shoulder, it turned out to be one of my customers who was quite a few years younger than me but a very big man. I was a little surprised because he's a very popular Architect in the area and had never seen me in public before although his wife had a picture of me from a Atlantic City Pageant parade a few years ago, and he had seen my pictures in my office.

We talked for a while and one of his friends came in and I was introduced. What was interesting was after we talked a few minutes, I wanted to roam around to see if I knew anyone else, when I came back near my friend and I was talking to 2 ladies he motioned me over to him and said his friend thought I was a real woman. He was very impressed and I was some what surprised also because I never feel I'm passable but do make a nice presentation.

As we were talking I had noticed a group of very large, most 6' to maybe 6'6" fit looking guys behind me. At first I didn't really pay attention, but I do like to instigate so I turned around again and looked the tallest one in the eye and he said hello, of course this was my moment, I offered my hand to shake and when he felt my grip he went a little nuts and wanted all his buddies to shake my hand too, there were about 7-8 of them at that time but maybe 15-19 in total as a group. As it turned out they were US Marshals and one was a State Police officer who I ride bike with one of his colleagues. They were totally gentlemen although one who was the biggest in height and size and a New Jersey power lift champion was terrified of me, Go Figure.

Anyway, about 10 PM the birthday party arrived, I hooked up one of the Marshals with one of the ladies, he kept telling me he was hot and horny and I figured I'd pass him off before I looked to good to him. I finally left by midnight.

The Pull Over

A couple Saturday's ago 05/06/09, my wife, her girl friend and I (Louise) went to Brigantine, they have a Karaoke night there. It was late, about midnight when we were traveling home and went through a few towns, I hadn't had a drink in over an hour and I only have 2 anyway. I notice a car pass in a no pass zone and figure it's another motorist, but it was a cop, the usual thing happens , lights and all. He comes's to the window and I great him, my wife and her GF are trying to keep a straight face when he asks if I was drinking and I said "officer, I don't drink". I hand him my licence and other information and watch as he walks back to his car. He gets to the front of his where the light is better and as he's looking at my licence he turns back to us and hands me back my information and says, someone called from another town saying to were swerving, but I think you're OK, have a good night.

My wife and her GF almost couldn't contain themselves and were bursting to laugh and had to hold it till he was in his car, they wanted to bust my chops about the not drinking comment and how he didn't want to deal with a Cross Dresser.

I've been pulled over many times, one reason is because I'm usually one of the few car's on the road and it could also be I'm tired and may indeed weave a little giving the illusion of intoxication, but every time I've been fortunate either because of the way I'm dressed as Louise or how i present myself. Also maybe the Cop feels he doesn't want to look prejudice or want to deal with the Louise thing at all. In any event, it's a discretionary call and I appreciate the consideration.

Like the 3 Stooges

Last Wednesday I made arrangements to go to a Photoshop seminar at the Convention Center in Philly. I had to get up at 5:30 AM, shower, shave, dress (as Louise) take my medicine and get to the Absecon train station.

Well, I wear a blond wig and I think it's rubbed off on me, I only used the self ticket machine once and that was with help last year. I felt I was running a little late and didn't want to screw up so I asked a lady for help. She happened to be Asian and if you know most Asians they tend to be very fast. I told her I wanted a one way to Philly, she started to push the buttons so fast I couldn't tell what she was doing. My back was to the tracks and I heard the train arrive and she pushed the last button and ran to the train, I grabbed the ticket and jumped in as the door closed and found a seat facing a rather large gentleman. As I settled into the seat and a little out of breath I noticed we may be going backwards, unless I was sitting facing Atlantic City. It took a moment to realise I was going the wrong way and confirmed it with the large gentleman facing me, he smiled and said "we're going to Atlantic City" almost in a gleeful way.

There was nothing I could do and now I'm really concerned if they're is another train or way I can get to Philly by 9:30, I was (to say the least) pissed.

I get to AC and ask a conductor about alternative transportation and was told the bus station is just out the door, so I run there and ask the ticket girl about the bus to Philly, she said yes it stops out the door way, so I go out and don't see anything and go back in and ask about a ticket, she said "Oh, I didn't know you wanted to go there" (Oh well). She starts to print a ticket and I ask what time does it arrive in Philly, she says 10:45 and I don't know where in the city it stops at. I said, I need to get there by 9:30, she said "you can got to the Greyhound line about 4 blocks away, they get there by 9:15.

I ran over there and just got a ticket and on the bus as it was pulling out. Turned out to be much better, the bus station is right by the Penn station food court, I had time to get a bagel and coffee from the Pennsylvania Dutch people and find a seat in the conference room.

I also met the girl who belongs and does the photography for the Epicurean society I belong to, we had lunch together and found out we have a mutual acquaintance that we both know that Cross Dresses too.

It was a rather long seminar with a few breaks. I used the men's room as Louise and I know cause a few remarks. As I was leaving the seminar I used to men's room at the end of the corridor in order to avoid causing others discomfort, but it was full, I had to wait a short bit and then a stall became available, as I was in there I heard the room get quiet, when I came out of the stall it was empty, I don't know if everyone ran out or what happened so I took my time and was washing my hands and turned to get paper to dry them, as I did an older (maybe 65-70 yo) man walked in a saw me and started to turn and run out, I called in my Lou voice, you're OK, I almost gave him a heart attack.

I walked back to the bus terminal and was reflecting on my thoughts about Cross Dressing when I was about 6-7 years old. It was because I had just walked by a Cop who glanced out the side of his eye. When I started down this road I felt I was not only the only person in the world with this off beat perversion, but that I would never allow anyone to lean my secret, in fact I wanted to die because I knew it was wrong. But now I walk down the street anywhere, anytime, in front of anyone. As the famous quiote goes "One small step as Lou, one giant step to Louise"

All in all, it was an experiance, but no trouble at all.

My reason for Louise

I'm pretty sure anyone in this lifestyle has asked themselves or have been asked what they really want out of this lifestyle. Many insist they were born the other gender than what they are "MTF or FTM", many just like the idea of cross dressing in private, then advancing to going out, maybe passing in public and so on.

Today, while washing my car it came to me, I don't want or need to be a woman, I've really never felt other than what I am, a guy who looks and is treated better as "Louise". So in my particular case I just want to be Lou as Louise, I want to be treated the way people may see me, as a person who has the courage to be themselves, make a reasonable appearance in public and not someone looking for more than consideration and acceptance.

I think to many, so called "TG" lifestyle people are pushed over the edge by peer pressure and then realize afterwards they made a terrible mistake. Many have never even ventured out in public in they're alter ego persona, but have this burning desire to transition. Yes, after 13 years and meeting many TS's, I did finally meet one who seems to have made the right choice as far as their holistic manners, presentation, voice and style, but they even are dealing with some questions. After all it took me almost a life time to finally come to some sort of answer about myself.

I think many people forget the word "compromise", I have and am much happier for it..

Louise

One for the book

I went to a regular spot I go to in Margate on Saturday nights. It still amazes me at how people people always like talking with me. I like to walk around the bar and see who's there for general conversation, quite often people have mentioned I ignored them and that is something I never want to do, I love the compliments.

I went to the other end of the bar where a gentleman who is a Horse Vet was, he's a pretty big man and seems to adore Louise, he even dances with me in this lounge, which I feel is very brave. He was talking to two women (41&45 years old), he said he was going to the lounge next door and left.

The two lady's seemed to be very comfortable with me and were very interested in a conversation, we talk about 15 minuets and then asked if I would like to join them next door, So we went, the older one bought me a drink, we walked around and she knew as many people as I did and we were introducing each other to our acquaintances. We were next to the dance floor and were being knocked around so we went to a different area at the bar. there was another woman who started to talk with me, she said she was 46, married, a school teacher, and was questioning her sexuality (I don't know why people are so free with personal information with Louise), she then asked me to come closer to her, the one girl, who bought me the drink asked me to dance, we were on the dance floor a few minutes and the school teacher came over and started to dance and was hugging me, she had to be about 5'10, I came up to her breasts, the other girl got upset and asked if I knew her, I said no, she said then get away from her, anyway we went back to our seats, even the tall teacher, It was about 11:30 and I like to race bike in the morning so I had to go, as I started to leave the teacher stood up with her back to me and grabbed my arms and put them on her breasts, I got out fast.

the lawyer Friday 4/10/09

I received a phone call from a law office Friday afternoon. It was related to a matter about 3 years ago at our neighbors home where they had a wedding reception for their daughter and the new mother in law was suing for a trip and fall (what a class act).

There is an issue which just arose within the last few months that caused us to no longer be on speaking terms with these people due to (you guested it) Louise. Funny thing is she was the one who promoted me to ALL her friends and always invited me as Louise to any function, but due to peer pressure, she has, I think, considered me competition against her.

I informed the attorney about the problem and also mentioned she seemed to have a "Megalomaniac" persona, the attorney started to laugh out loud and said I made that assumption from the investigators report, I then explained why. He seemed to be totally confused and asked if I was Millie, my wife, because he was sending subpoenas out to both of us. I explained that I was Lou and Louise and my wife was Millie, it took a few moments for him to adjust to the explanation.

I then told him if I were subpoenaed I would present myself as Louise in court, he said "I can't wait to meet you".

The interesting circumstance here is that the reason of our conflict is due to Louise, but the person who is going to give the testimony that will clear these people from losing the case is the person they dislike, "Life is a Paradox"

The DMV

A few weeks ago I wanted to renew my wife's registration in person so I could see what effect I would have at the DMV. The DMV is located a a local mall nearby. I went in and they have a reception area, I was told to complete my form, which I should have done at home. I didn't have my wife's insurance information, thank goodness for cell phones.

I completed the form and went back to the reception desk and handed it to one of the women (they seem to be very focused on their jobs), she asked for my drivers licence which I handed to her, she took a look and said this is your husbands, I said "no it's mine" she did a little double take and said "Oh you really do look much better as a woman".

From there I had an appointment in Atlantic City, well not really an appointment but I wanted to talk to someone about a legal issue. I was informed he was busy and expecting another client shortly, by the time I got to the office we were still on the phone, so I said I'm here now and the receptionist called him to the waiting area. He took one look at me and invited me back to his office where we talked about 30 Min's. It's amazing at how well people will treat me as Louise, Lou would have diffidently had been brushed aside and told to make an appointment.

Saturday night with my wife

My wife will go out with me once a month or so. Last night we walked into a very upscale restaurant in Margate. It was very busy because of a black tie event. One of the first people to come over to me was the president of the Atlantic Community Collage, Dr Mora, he remedied me we had met at one of the Epicurean dinners we had at the collages restaurant. He also introduced me to his wife who is a PHD and professor, his daughter and son-in-law, I was very impressed at how well I was accepted.

I know a couple people there and like to walk around to talk with them, I saw the owner, Sofia, she and her sister have always been very accepting of me, as I walked in her direction, she push past the people around her and said "Louise, we miss you, where have you been" she hugged and kissed me. Then, the person who was being honored, Dr Dominck Potena (he was retiring) saw me and takes my hand in front of everyone, kisses it and then kisses me 4 times right on my lips, and his daughter was right next to him.

If you ever met me, you would know I'm just not capable of making up these story's and it's a good thing my wife and her friend were witnesses. I only wish I had the courage to ask for a picture but I felt with that company it would have been poor etiquette.

"And people wonder why I cross dress"

Interesting effects Louise has on people

On Wednesday the 11Th. my wife was away and I was sorta bored so I dressed as Louise. I went to lunch and then to the thrift shop. I noticed one person who I know is a closet CD because my wife and I have seen him often looking at women's clothing and taking it into a dressing room. I tend to avoid him because I'm just not interested and he isn't really interested in anything other than the clothes as a fetish.

As I was looking through the dress area, a gentleman about late 40's (Hispanic) approached me with some dresses and motioned to me to try them, he was also a CD and buying some items for himself and felt comfortable sharing it with me.

I found two items and went to the register. The cashier this time is also the assistant manager, she's been there about 3 years, she has never talked to me as Lou, and always looks at me with a stern and scanning expression, I didn't even know she spoke English. I put the clothes on the counter and she looked into my face and eye's and said "I like, very nice, I love your lipstick" and had a big smile on her face. I was floored, I thought she didn't like me, I have no idea if she knew who I was or even knew I was a guy, but it sure made my day,

I left the thrift shop and went to the Verizon store to check out a new phone. The salesman was very attentive and as he when back and forth trying to make the exchange and set the phone up I would be unattended. First the security guard came up behind me and greats me by saying my femme name "Hello Ms Louise" he knew me, but I couldn't remember him, it's awkward when that happens. Next the lady who owned a lounge I used to go to came in and walked over to talk with me, in the mean time at least 3 other sales people came back and forth at least 3 times to make sure I was being taken care of. Then one of my old customers came in and we started talking, everyone seemed to treat me above and beyond average of what Lou would receive.

To prove that last statement, I had to go back to have something else set on the phone and the treatment was reasonable, but not at all with the same attention as Louise.

Saturday night with the Wrestlers

On the 17Th of March, Louise was invited to a birthday party at the Trump Plaza for the bar tender/school teacher of Good Fellows. The one person from the night before was there and a different cop. I was also surprised because they were having the wresting championship here and the lounge must have had 200 guys who were attending.

I must have made an impression because I was dragged onto the dance floor and just about had to wrestle with everyone there. They had a blast, I was wore out, but everyone was a total gentleman, and the lady's liked me too. Only one person was a little apprehensive and when I meet someone like that I don't push my luck.

One other interesting thing happened, I lost a little bracelet and figured in that crowed I'd never find it. As I was getting on the escalator a lady came over and asked "is this yours" it was my bracelet, I was very impressed, she could have easily pocketed it and no one would have been the wiser. Good for her, she was brought up right.

Friday at Good Fellows

I went to Good Fellows restaurant/lounge Friday night the 16Th. As I came in I was greeted affectionately as usual. As I came around the other side they're was one of the bouncers from Bubba Mac's where I used to go before it was tore it down. He was with two other couples and his wife, one is a cop and the other a weight lifter. The cop and other person were pretty much enamored with Louise, they were grabbing me but nicely and we just had a great time.

My friend the bouncer emailed me a few days latter and said the other two guys were still talking about the night and how much fun they had with me.

It's so good to feel accepted and considered someone who isn't a threat and you can have fun with. Oh, I have a tradition, when I meet someone with a shaved head I need to give them, "The Mark of Louise"

You have to take the good with the bad

I've been having shoulder difficulty and am told it's ill repairable, I've had 3 opinions and I'm still not totally convinced that with today's advanced technology and skills that nothing can be done. I located a hospital in Arizona that does (I think) shoulder bone grafts. I contacted them and said I had new MRI's, I was asked to send them a CD with the pictures. I wanted to do this as soon as possible and went last Friday the 6 Th. to get a disc form the imaging office.

The office staff are always professional almost to the point of being overly animated and patronizing (a cool and firm greeting) . For example, "YES, HOW MAY I HELP YOU!" "TAKE A SEAT AND FILL THIS OUT!" you get the idea. Well Friday is my Louise day and I had other errants besides that one so I wanted to be dressed. I went into the Imaging office and the same young lady who usually (puts me in my place, firmly) says "yes madman, how may I help you?" I explained my needs and she said "no problem, you need to fill out this form, but I can do it for you" she filled the form out for me and gave it to me to sign and said, "I hope you don't mind, we usually need 24 hours notice but because it's Friday it won't be done till Monday morning" she was so apologetic, almost to the point of tears. I really don't know what my impact on her was but I think next time I need an MRI Louise is going.

My next errant was to stop at my local thrift store since I had missed Wednesdays sale day. It wasn't very busy but I did recognize one person who I'm sure is a closet CD, he's sort of a very heavy guy and I'm sure very closeted and nervous, he always looks around to see if someone notices he's in the lady's department. Another man, I didn't pay any attention to was checking out dresses, he was a little taller than me, maybe 5'5 or 5'6 Hispanic with a carpenters type jacket and wool cap on. He come over to me and shows me a dress and says, this would look nice on you, then he has another one on his arm and holds it in front of himself and says this one is for me, he also had some panties and a couple of bra's hanging from his hand.

I've been patronizing this thrift shop about 8-9 years, there's a woman assistant manager (possibly Filipino, but no matter) she never smiles always "scans" me in a very negative and questioning way, never a smile and I just figured didn't speak English well. I picked out a few items I liked and tried them for fit. I went to the register to check out and she was working the register, I said to myself "I'm in for it now, I'm sure she'll give me a nasty look" I put the items on the counter and she looks right into my eye's and say "Very nice, I like, and your lips look so good" I was stunned, I didn't even know she spoke English and also so nice to me, maybe she didn't even put the two of me together, but what a feeling I had, LOUISE WORKS.

The same day I had made arrangements for a new friend to visit, she's a TS, she came about 5:30 PM after getting confused with directions (good thing for cell phones). We talked about 10-15 minuets before Millie (my wife) came home. Millie helped our new friend with some light makeup and we went out for what we thought would be a nice dinner, light drinks and music. I got the shock of my life which I will post after I decide on what course of action I need to pursue.

Saturday I did 42 miles on the bike and I was finished and riding slowly (10 mph) with a friend talking, I rode off the lip of the road and when I tried to get back on I was flipped off the bike, as usual you always re injure something you want to protect, I did a flip onto my head (I always wear a helmet) and all my weight onto my bad shoulder, I said to myself, just my damn luck, as bad as it hurt now I'm done for good. I got home iced my hand and shoulder and took some Advil, I can't believe it, my shoulder hasn't felt this good in 6 months, maybe I'll fall on it next time it bothers me.

Heathers Rear End

Heather called me a couple weeks ago because she was having rear end trouble and she knew I was the best rear end person in the area. I had to do some deep research into locating something that had little wear and tear on it, but we all know rear ends always get the butt of abuse.

I called two auto recycle yards (as they are called now), the first place wanted 700.00 and the second was 300.00. Heather as Joe came down on Thursday morning with his trailer so we could pick it up. I was uncertain about the condition so I checked a couple more rears that were in the yard but we decided to take the one we had.

Heather had to go back home to take Rain (his wife) to the doctors, I started to prep Heathers new "rear end" for installation. I found that the emergency brakes were shot so I went to the parts store and bought new ones for her and installed them.

Heather returned latter in the afternoon around 2 or so. We jacked up the car and got to work. I have a damaged shoulder that is now completely gone due to some stress I had incurred before but this job finished it. I also put out for the parts and with Heathers very capable help and her own experience we got her on the road after about 41/2 - 5 hours.

I've done a tremendous amount (voluntarily) for Heather and want nothing in return other than just general courtesy's, like a big hug and thank you. I mentioned I had bought new brakes for her and she asked what the price was, I said buy me a drink or two (they were 31.00 dollars) no big deal and trust me, what I did and do for her goes way beyond money. I do it because I feel she does struggle, I guess, or at least this is not a good time to buy another vehicle. But beyond that I have VERY deep feelings for this person. Why, I don't know but I know she knows my feelings and as I said as we were almost done, " I wouldn't do this for my wife (Heather said) would you do it for your girl friend (I said) you are my girl friend". We both started to laugh almost into tears.

What hurt me though was last night, when I walked in and went in to the end of the bar where she was talking with a newer girl for that venue, she never even said high, kissed me, introduced me to the new girl and totally ignored me the whole night.

I Just don't get it, maybe it's me or maybe I'm just to sensitive, but Heather did make a point of handing out the flyers she recived from the transgender group to every other person there but never even offered one to me.

01/17/09 The Mayor and Louise

As I've mentioned numerous times, I go to my local haunt in Somers Point, NJ. I've met many interesting and some important people there simply because the food, consistency and prices are always very fair which leads to a devoted upscale following, besides, it's just across the causeway from Ocean City, NJ which happens to be a dry town.

Friday the 16th was no different than most Fridays that I've been there. As I was listening to the music and talking with an older couple an elderly gentleman (around 78 yo) approached me and said "there is a spot on the dance floor for another couple", I was very complimented let alone surprised as were the couple I was speaking with. The gentleman asked me to dance 4 times that night.

As the evening was slowing down and the band on break, he came over and asked if I would mind if he sat with me, I would have been rude to deny him, so we talked. He purchased a glass of wine for me. We exchanged pleasantries and exchanged some general information about ourselves. Turns out that he was a vice president for Cigna Insurance company of North America and also a member of the Union League of Philadelphia (google it if you don't know what it is) and also the past mayor of a nearby very exclusive ocean front town, which I'll leave nameless to protect this person.

I felt at this time I had to drop the ball (so to speak) It would have been totally out of my character to present myself as a woman (if he didn't know), besides, I have no idea where he was or wanted to go with this and since he hadn't turned over his life insurance to me, I didn't want to go further. So I said, John, I'm not what you think I am, he replied "you're not a widow", I said not only that, but I'm not a woman either. His response knocked me back a little, he said "I'm drawn to you". I thanked him and said the bar wants to close, he asked if I would mind if he escorted me to my car. He held my arm and hugged me thanked me for an enjoyable evening and said he would be back to dance with me again.

I've been told I'm passable, but I try not to be that pretentious to believe that, I do say I make a nice presentation through.

Louise

Celebrating Life

Many people, including myself (unfortunately) take many things at face value, we may form an opinion just because someone looks or acts a curtain way or their position in life.

The other night, Friday 01/09/09, I was at my favorite haunt. I had met a lady who is on my direct right in the picture, she has always been very kind to me and has introduce many of her friends to me. This past Friday she was "Celebrating Life". I won't get into details, but all of us in the picture has to deal with our own crises or complications in life. Some people need medication, others surgery, others like myself need to become a different persona to get though.

The point is we should never be overly critical in one way or the other from outward appearances.